On Alignment
I was thinking about this a few hours ago, and so the thoughts aren't quite as sharp as they were as I was doing dishes after my morning coffee. This is often the case. Coffee provides me the wakeup that it does most people, but it also brings a ... idk, how else to put it. Coffee makes me kind of aggro. Fortunately I have realized this, since some years ago I would use the morning energy to write thoughts of importance to people of importance, and then later think to myself “maybe I shouldn't have done that.”
Anyway, in D&D and elsewhere there is this concept of character “alignment”. I never played D&D, sad to say, but am as familiar with some of the alignments as I used to be astrology. Categorizing, fitting things into labels that I myself resent nevertheless brings me some kind of comfort I guess. I like pattern matching.
I was thinking about my own character alignment, which I would either admit or claim proudly to be “chaotic good”. There are 9 alignments in this system, and you can picture a 3x3 grid. Across the top of the grid or the X axis you have “lawful”, “neutral”, and “chaotic”. Down the Y axis you have “good”, “neutral”, and “evil”. The most classic examples of some of these would be Captain America as “lawful good” or Donald Trump as “chaotic evil”. “Lawful evil” is an interesting and dangerous alignment. Russ Vogt, our current head of mgmt and budget in DC is easily a lawful evil character. He's spent his life learning the system he wants to destroy, and now he's in the seat to do so. What a prick. Some people will do anything but talk to a therapist.
Anyway, I find myself at the opposite corner of the grid from him. The reason this is on my mind this morning is because chaotic good is a tough row to hoe in corporate America. Corporate America and end stage capitalism are pretty simple – whoever is seen as generating the most profits for the investors right now is given more. A “short term gain, long term loss” is someone else's problem. Job hopping is rewarded, and long term efforts are generally ignored. Whatever you can produce now, regardless of value, is better than whatever you might produce next year, regardless of value. If you are a human who doesn't like job hopping and who prefers to think systemically, holistically, and longer term, then you have to steal your fun where you can. You have to keep an eye on the short term flashy things in order to buy a job long enough to see through the longer term things.
See, the thing is, it's time for me to have a point about my own alignment and how it fits into corporate culture. I don't have one.
This is strictly for me to write some thoughts down that I can refer back to later, and hopefully begin to rebuild some of the facility and fondness for writing that I used to have. Writing and thinking used to cost so much time and effort, and now that it's perceived as being free it feels more valuable than ever. So that's my point – to be human, and incomplete.
